New year

Sorry for not posting for a month.

Christmas was nice.
We were at my parents and had a nice evening with, presents, simple food and playing cards.

On December 27th we made a trip to Georgis family and we stayed there until January the second.
I love his family. His mother with husband and especially his sister with husband and these two adorable kids who love me so much. (little Paula cried so much as we left that it hurt my heart 😦  )

And now, a new year started, we are back at work and I just can say that I feel really great.

Work is not that fun but it is O.K.. I have so much to do but I don´t set myself under pressure because I just cand do what I can do.

This morning I woke up at 4 o´clock in the morning and I layed awake for a while and thougth, that I am completly happy at the moment.
I have a wonderful man at my side that I have so much fun with.
We talked about children at his sisters house and I think we will really “do something” at the end of the summer 😉 (but we will see)

And we maybe have something coming up that is really huge and great.
Remember my post about missing my hometown but actually don´t wanna live there anymore because of my past? Well, it turns out that maybe the old woman next to my parents has to go to a foster home; well, she is already there since before christmas, but maybe (my mother thinks no) she comes back.

So, then this house is empty and we could buy it. Its right next to my parents house. Its a row house, but and end house. (you know what I mean)

I thought about living so far (its not that far, but far) away from my parents and I realized, that its maybe nicer to live near them. Think about babysitting 😉

There would be a lot to do in this house. New roof, new paint, we had to rebuild a lot. But that would be fun and we hope that the house is very cheap.

The think about this since the end of Dezember now and in our minds we already moved in there. But first the old woman has to move out for sure (she lives there for rent but I know that the company will sell it) and than they have to make an
assessment and advertise it.

I really hope so much that we can get it. We talk about it so much already and we would be really disappointed. *sigh*

So, wish us luck please.

Since March

we live in this house.

We are 7 Neighbours.

In this almost 10 months, I have n´t seen everybody or
speak much to anybody, except of a “Good Morning” sometimes. 

That is a little bit sad and so I hope they will like my little
gesture. 

I put this little bags secretly on the doors.
Hope they like it. 

*

Yesterday we were visiting my parents for christmas-cookie-baking.

The kitchen was a mess and in the middle my honey decorating
cookies, my father and the dog watching us, my mum swirling
around… I stood there and enjoyed this moment. It was so
wonderful. Just one thing was missing: a child that creates even more
chaos, with little hands who just want to help, beaming eyes…

But this will be one day.
It was fun. 

*

More pictures at Flickr.

christmas mood

I´m totally in christmas mood.

I decorated the apartement this weekend, went shopping
yesterday and singing christmas-songs all the time.

That is our advents-calender; 24 little bags filled with chocolate and little
things. Georgie filled the uneven numbers for me and I´m the even ones
for him:

 

And this is our advents-wreath; every sunday before christmas we lit one more
candle:

 

This year, I will enjoy christmas-time more than ever.

 

Happy first “Advent”.

please do not disturb

home

We were visiting my parents yesterday in my hometown.

They miss me. Thats obvious.
Before, I lived just around the corner, visiting
them at least once a week.

Now I live one hour by car away. 

We took a long walk and they called my attantion to every
empty apartement or house on our way.

They want me to come back home some day.

I love my hometown. Its small and nice and quiet.
I growed up there. I know every path and every stone.

I would love to be near my family again.
Let my kids play at the same places as I did.

But, since this year I don´t feel very comfortable then I
am outside on the streets in my hometown; even on the
way to my parents in the car.

I´m always afraid that my Ex-boyfriend or one of his
family or friends come around the corner and I have to
face him/them.

I know its ridicolous. 
But do I want to live always in “fear” then I go outside?
The town is so small that you have to meet some day
in the supermarket or somewhere one day.
Maybe it will be forgotten in a few years, but at the
moment I dont think so because how the last month
went. (he is miserable, very)

Another point is, in my hometown the shools are not
that good and you don´t have any good opportunitys
for shopping or going out or do anything.

Potsdam is great. I love the town.
But raising children in a city?
Far away from my family?

Well, I don´t have to think about that now.
Because, as long as it is just the two of us, and even
when we have a child, as long as its under two years
old we could stay in our apartement here in Potsdam.

But where do we want to settle down?
Where do we want to build our house, our home?

Georgi is, as always, totally relaxed about that.
He is sure, that something perfect will come up for us.

And maybe he is right. Maybe a great opportunity
will find us then its time.

I´m looking forward to see what it will be.

Halloween

I have to tell you something: We planned to go to a Halloween Party somewhere.
We didn´t know where, but we wanted to go to the city and see whats up.
But after dinner and movies:
he: you still wanna go out?
she: no, not really, I´m tired.
he: me neither, I´m tired too..
And so we stayed at home and had fun by making funny photos.

I think we are getting old……

But it was nice.
We had great food and a lot of fun.
Just one girl came for trick or treat…. well, its not so popular
in Germany.

check out my photos at Flickr.

Hope you all had a nice Halloween.

Happy Halloween

Its 8:30 in the morning and I could get dressed up already.

In a few parts of the german states today is also a public holiday,
called Reformation day.

And that means that we have a day off today. That is so
great to have a 3-day-weekend.

Georgi is still asleep, I´m still in my pajamas with my laptop
on the couch.

But soon I will start to bake bread and a cake, will do
the laundry and stuff like that.

And I can´t wait to dress up in the evening.

I loooove Halloween!

pumpkin buddies

Today we carved pumpkins.
Georgi did it the first time and it was so much fun.

These were the pumpkins before. 
I felt in love with the ugly big one in the supermarket.
He is not perfect but we saw that he is a good guy 🙂 

My artist.

Tadaaa: done. Are these three buddies not just great?

And of course they look great in the dark.

Now they are at the windowsills in our living room.

I hope the people who walk by will have a smile on their
face because of our pumpkin-buddies.

And what about you? Show me your jack-o-laterns.

Sweets for my Sweet…

I have baked again.

There is this American Lady, Cynthia Barcomi, that lives in
Germany and had two Cafés in Berlin. And she wrote this
amazing baking recipe book.

So today I made:

An “Banana Chocolate Swirl Cake”

I haven´t cut it yet. I will post a picture of it when I did it.

And  “Chocolate Chip Cookies”. They are very very delicious.