We were visiting my parents yesterday in my hometown.
They miss me. Thats obvious.
Before, I lived just around the corner, visiting
them at least once a week.
Now I live one hour by car away.
We took a long walk and they called my attantion to every
empty apartement or house on our way.
They want me to come back home some day.
I love my hometown. Its small and nice and quiet.
I growed up there. I know every path and every stone.
I would love to be near my family again.
Let my kids play at the same places as I did.
But, since this year I don´t feel very comfortable then I
am outside on the streets in my hometown; even on the
way to my parents in the car.
I´m always afraid that my Ex-boyfriend or one of his
family or friends come around the corner and I have to
face him/them.
I know its ridicolous.
But do I want to live always in “fear” then I go outside?
The town is so small that you have to meet some day
in the supermarket or somewhere one day.
Maybe it will be forgotten in a few years, but at the
moment I dont think so because how the last month
went. (he is miserable, very)
Another point is, in my hometown the shools are not
that good and you don´t have any good opportunitys
for shopping or going out or do anything.
Potsdam is great. I love the town.
But raising children in a city?
Far away from my family?
Well, I don´t have to think about that now.
Because, as long as it is just the two of us, and even
when we have a child, as long as its under two years
old we could stay in our apartement here in Potsdam.
But where do we want to settle down?
Where do we want to build our house, our home?
Georgi is, as always, totally relaxed about that.
He is sure, that something perfect will come up for us.
And maybe he is right. Maybe a great opportunity
will find us then its time.
I´m looking forward to see what it will be.